I did the most irrational, idiotic, nonsensical, thing today. Please learn from my mistake.
My partner always tells me to “bat him upside the head” when he needs it. Well, at 5 am this morning, I decided that sounded like a really good idea. So I walked up behind him and popped him on the back of the head. He never saw it coming. If that wasn’t bad enough, when he asked me why I did it, I simply stared at him like he was stupid for not knowing, and then walked away.
Why did I do it? It doesn’t matter. Nothing he could do would ever justify me putting my hands on him in that manner. Violence within a relationship is never called for.
Communication is the most important thing to have in a relationship, and I let that break down. I chose to keep some feelings to myself until I erupted. That was wrong. I have no reason to keep anything to myself. This relationship is the most open, honest relationship that I have ever had. We have had the most incredible conversations that I never dreamed that I would have with anybody. I can tell him anything. What the hell is wrong with me?
I will spend the rest of my life making it up to him … if he will let me. I mean, if he ever hit me, I’d pack my bags and leave without a second thought.
Domestic violence is NEVER called for, no matter who is the perpetrator.